16 Aug Spending Your Time Struggling to Flail
You’re standing there wearing a harness with a slacked bungee cord attached to your back and you don’t even know it. That cord holds you inside a circle with a radius that you haven’t yet discovered. That radius will soon be made known to you as your currently perceived boundary of personal limitations. One day you wander far enough from the center of your own world to feel the tension build. You realize you need to put more energy into moving further from the stagnant world of comfort you live in and the bungee cord starts to tighten up, holding you in a pattern. As you struggle, you get stronger, but at the same time, while attempting to break through the barrier and be released from the grips of the bungee cord that’s holding you at bay, you fear the few seconds beyond the release as you know that you will be completely out of control until you situate yourself. Stronger and stronger you become as you persist, tugging, and pulling, hoping that the cord will finally break and you’ll go flying out into a new realm, expanding your reach, enlarging the radius of your world. You’ve grown accustomed to the angle of attack, the pressure on your shoulders, the burn in your thighs, until suddenly, the cord snaps sending you tumbling forward towards a new horizon. Wham, crash, bang, scrape. Again, another SNAP as the end of the bungee cord whips you from behind, reminding you of where you were and making it evident that even though you’re somewhere new, and your world just got bigger, breaking through was a struggle followed by a short period of being completely out of control.
That moment when we realize we are stuck somewhere and that we need to get out is often enough to foreshadow the impending “snap” of the past which will inevitably send us flailing into the unknown feeling completely out of control. More often than not we perceive our current circumstances to be less painful than change, but the truth of the matter is, change is good, and yes it is painful, but it leads to a bigger and better world for those who dive in and make it happen.